Drinking the Koolaid

Just when you think Eric Morse/William Pattison couldn't get any nastier he assured us last night that his toxic and childish behavior has no limits. This man claims to be bullied. Derek Young claims his film Psychotic State is about bullying and that he has been bullied as well. I have not seen proof of either being bullied but I have seen Morse/Pattison attacking an endless number of people. Last night he recorded an overly long podcast where he called acquaintances of mine "faggots." That podcast was the most disgusting and sociopathic recording I have ever heard. Victims of bullying do not behave this way and anyone who stands behind this behavior is just as bad. People who were supporting this poor excuse for a human being have decided they could no longer stand behind him for being a misogynist homophobe. It's refreshing to see that several individuals will not put up with his questionable actions. It's clear who the real bully is and that's Eric Morse.

Eric began crying at the end of the show as he compared the loss of a facebook friend to his ex girlfriend who broke his heart. I discussed this "friend" on my last entry. It seems this man is convinced we asked a woman to pretend to be friends with him on behalf of WiHM. This is incorrect. 

Several lies were expressed as he continued to accuse me of all kinds of malarkey.  He claims I made my son cry every time it was his turn to talk on a recent chaotic podcast. This is incorrect. He seems to be a paranoid individual. You could hear my son crying in the background because it was his bed time and I was trying to train him to sleep in his crib since he sleeps with me every night. This is a standard experience for every parent. I stayed on the podcast because I wanted the opportunity to defend myself. There is no conspiracy and I was not interrupting him. I was trying to get him to speak for himself instead of having others talk for him. But Eric cannot hold an adult conversation. His conversations consist of bizarre musings, name calling, and "kiss my ass."
Another lie he set up was that I plagiarized work from Dr. Blood. Dr. Blood was kind enough to call Eric out and make it known that I never plagiarized  any of this work. He was actually hysterical and found it rather amusing. I work hard on my articles and they are 100 percent plagiarism free. He also said I wrote for Heidi's site when I never have. I honestly have no idea how he comes up with some of this shit.

As someone who claims to be a 'fan' of The Gash he doesn't seem to know an awful lot about it. There were four of us that started the show together and I was never "fired" from Horror News Net. We had all discussed leaving the site. I was the only one who did because ScreamTV offered to pay me and HNN would take weeks to post my content and the rest is history.

I would like to stop talking about this bizarre individual. Notice I never name call nor stoop to his level. I will only correct the false accusations he throws at us. So that's that. You are a liar and you continue to act like a misogynist and homophobe. Keep up the good work.

Regarding Last Night's Podcast

Going to keep this short and sweet because I have to get ready for a long work weekend. Last night I did a Horror Social's podcast with Chris and Tom. What kills me about setting the record straight and disproving the lies is that these people still go out of their way to twist everything around. So now we have two more lies that I am going to address and once again I am asking that you get some help for your paranoia and delusions of grandeur. A woman that I recently became acquainted with came onto my podcast to apologize for some things she had said about me. She was very kind as she felt embarrassed for believing God only knows what was said. This was the first time I had ever spoken with this woman but I could tell she was decent and mature. Because said person apologized to me, she is now being attacked by GUESS WHO and odd stories that don't make any sense are floating around all over the place. Apparently, Eric Morse has it in his head that I accosted this woman and asked her to spy on Eric and another individual on behalf on WiHM. Isn't that the most ludicrous thing you ever heard? I'm sure you can imagine the look on my face when I read this but it looked a little something like this....

Please put down your tin foil hat and stop making up all these fake scenarios in your head. In this email I was told, "People from your camp are saying you bragged about getting *beep* to spy for you and WiHM." I don't have a camp. I've never even been to Summer Camp. The only thing I have ever said about this woman is that she was attacked for coming on my show and apologizing to me so this is a complete lie. I played along and asked for proof of 'my camp' making this statement but of course I never got it because that conversation never happened. Thanks for the laugh though. I wonder what they will come up with next.

Another thing I want to clear up is this whole 'transgender spy' thing. A woman who was disgusted by some of the things being said about me and my friend Allison confronted the party for being so immature. It's especially refreshing to see a woman rant about how she has been bullied only to turn around and call people shemales and fat cum guzzling cunts. Keep it classy Elske. Because this woman stood up for me, she is now apparently a transgender. All because she is a make-up artist and posed in a picture with some of her transgender friends. First and foremost, she is not a transgender and that's just a cruel lie. Second, even if she was a transgender, who the fuck cares? I have transgender friends and they're remarkable people. I do not find her poking fun at this lifestyle funny. Oh but she has been bullied so she can say whatever vile, despicable thing she wants.

Let me make this clear. I and the rest of the WiHM affiliates do not ask nor tell people to 'spy' on anyone's pages. I do have Elske and Eric blocked. People come at with me screen caps of shit being said all the time and I don't ask for them. There is also no "Team Rebekah" and no "clique." I do not tell people they have to choose sides. If you want to make friends with mental people, hey they world is your oyster. I'm not stopping you. I do not play these games. All I try to do is correct the lies that are being said.

On our show last night we wanted to make it clear that it doesn't matter if you are gay, straight, transgender, black, Asian, or Jewish. Making fun of anyone for these things is pathetic and it shows how insecure you are. We do not call people "bitches" or "cunts" and we welcome all points of view. It's a shame not everyone is wired this way. Way to threaten women on your page you misogynist. Stop saying everyone is stalking you. The only reason why people listen to your podcasts and read your posts is because they find your bizarre behavior entertaining. As for the other, Alex hasn't been stalking you for months. He reviewed Jessicka Rabid because he heard how horrible it was from many people. His review was very thoughtful. That doesn't make him a stalker.

Last but not least, I am not a blogger. This is my personal page where I promote my modeling and film work. Sometimes I do geek out about films but I am not a paid blogger nor do I have adsense. I have my own VHS column for Geek Juice and I write for several websites. Sometimes I get paid for my articles and I do for those in print. Stop being so insecure you silly goose :)

Any who, check back for more Hanukkill updates. I'm sure that will give you something else to be mad about.

Throw Back Thursday

Here are some old Myspace photos. A lot of these photos were taken before Myspace but some are from my first crappy phone cam in 2004. Myspace wouldn't let me save the photos so I had to screen cap them. There are a few dance photos as well. Most of these are random photos I saved from the old site. I have always had several separate groups of friends who I loved equally but this post is mostly reserved for my old roommate and our 'gang' around that time. Not all the photos are of me. I saved a few of you guys in case you wanted copies. Enjoy :)

Sabbath Dinner with the family. Feel free to make fun of my hair.

I took screen caps of this old dance video. This was the best I could do. This was for Dick Tracy's "Hanky Panky." Amber was Madonna. That's me in the middle.

Kick line for "That's Entertainment. I am on the right of the thick gal in the middle. We hated those feathers. So did our moms who had to make them. During practice, one of the teachers yelled at me and made me cry.

Teeth appreciation post! I brush my teeth two times a day and floss.

Accepting my diploma after studying those medical books behind the bar only to continue to work behind the bar because I make more money bartending than I do taking labs from patients. Sad but true. I've posted non blurry photos before but this is the only one I have in action.

And now for shitty webcam photos. This is me without make up. My brothers in the back.

No, I am not naked. It just looks weird.

I don't care if this is a bad angle. That poster was cool.

Phone cam at work. This is when I was working for Cingular Wireless in the mall.

This is just all bad but I am not ashamed.

Israel photos

My mother with the Israeli army

My parents use to have television shows on Prime Time Christian where they discussed Judaism. They paid for the Israeli army to have a new basket ball court. I am STILL trying to find my old camera with a shit load of photos. I had a blast.

My mother's Kosher cooking show.

A terrible photo of me at TFW 6 years ago. Never dye your hair black kids.

The old crew!

None of us were sober in this photo. We thought it would be a good idea to get a 'family photo' made because we were all so close. Everyone wanted to be at mine and Ashley's place 24/7.

Ashley, Mikey, Garret, and someone who I hope to never see again. This girl told us she was 19. Even her own boyfriend. We found out she was only 17.

Ashley's car that we named Blue Steel. So many break downs in that thing when it was 100 degree out.

That was one hot Summer.

I was always making fun of Ashley for making gang signs.



Cody Allen had too much to drink at the Christmas party

Black light bowling

My friend's Tony and Melinda always came over to play Band Hero. Fuck, this is old. I only have 7 autographs on my wall.

Mallory! Eventually, she became my new room mate. We went to school together. There are too many photos of her and I having a good time on the weekends, kid free! I will save that for another Thursday.

This was the episode where Hannah announced the beginning of Women in Horror Month. Dai and I created The Gash with two other ladies, Stacy and Michelle. This was several years ago.

Eventually, Stacy left so it was me, Dai, and Michelle. Michelle would leave soon after then Dai found Nita to join us. I think I still have some banners with Nita, I'll have to look. 

Here we go! This was in 2010 after we took a little break. I haven't spoken to Nita in a while. I did talk to Dai on the phone last week. It's a shame I still had some growing up to do and got into a tiff with Dai but we put the past behind us and I have tremendous respect for the woman. I enjoyed hearing her voice again for the first time in years. It's also a shame that people cannot just leave her name out of anything negative but what can you do? <3 br="">

Halloween 2010. One of my many costumes. This is just something I threw together at the last minute. Whatever. It was cold that night.

Old banners

From Teddy's Nightmare. Jason Hughes and I worked on a lot of gory projects together.

I bartended wedding for 2 years

And sometimes I bartended Christmas parties.

The ladies had a Jason cookie made for me. We would always have a cookie made for each other. Only they messed up, they forgot I have never been a Jason Voorhees fan. Freddy has my heart. Chris and Amy had a Freddy cake made for me a few years ago. It's really the thought that counts though. I will have to save this batch of friends for another Thursday. There's no such thing as having too many friends. I love all my ladies. It's a shame that some people only have internet friends.