Pretty Pictures and TFW Recap

Photo by the amazing John Torrani

Something was off about this 10th anniversary. It's not that I didn't have fun.... Believe me when I say I did BUT for a 10th reunion, it felt as if something was missing. It could have been that our main crew was not present. It's almost as if the original TFW crew is no longer interested and now there's this entire new breed of groups that are drunker than we ever were and unkempt. There was a moment when Jovanka and I realized we are either getting old or we have learned the necessary behavior when it comes to promoting ourselves and our product. Attendees were already wasted early Thursday when the convention hadn't even started - Not that I am judging. People were coming to Jovanka's booth early Saturday morning and they were already drunk. A TFW staff member was fired by Elvira because a belligerent drunk told her assistant that he was man handling him when he attempted to go out of a door that was forbidden. The behavior I witnessed this year opened my eyes and brought back past memories with Roxy and I doing our thing. What the hell were we thinking? How did we feel this was appropriate behavior? When you are a business woman in the horror industry who takes her work seriously, you do not run around throwing tampons at people or randomly slapping people in the ass. I cringe now when I look at pictures and feel embarrassed by my behavior. We were party girls without a care in the world.

Maybe it's a culmination of everything my body went through last year and attending far too many of these conventions over the years that has me on my best behavior. I'm tired. I'm bored. Everyone is annoying to me. This year, I got food poisoning and a painful sinus infection. I was in my bed all day Saturday until the evening approached. Thank you for all the lovely comments on my VIP gown. I couldn't have done it without John. The poor guy was checking on me every hour. He even held an ice bucket for me to vomit in. Had he not taken care of me and helped to settle my stomach, I wouldn't have had the opportunity to rock that dress and spend time with my friends. That's all I wanted to do this year. This was the first year where I was not hosting TFW, not a part of the staff, not moderating panels, not doing interviews, not sitting at a booth promoting my work, etc... The only thing I cared about was hanging out with my friends and spending time with fellow writers that have been attending for years and years. People who just started going or that have only been a couple of times have no idea how strong the TFW bond is and how broken that bond felt when only half of us showed.

You can tell from my subtle expression that I am really not feeling good
My fellow red-headed horror Rebekah!

The VIP party with Rebekah McKendry, Spooky Dan, Torrani, and Jovanka felt like a prom setting. Honestly, the VIP party is not all it's cracked up to be. I'm sad I missed out on the karaoke and I just have to take the time to express how much I adore Rebekah McKendry. She's a wonderful mother, beautiful on the inside and out, incredibly warm and kind, and talented young lady. I look forward to future projects with the Fango/Gore Zone team. If only I had the time to listen to their Killer POV podcast....

Torrani showing off his Faces of Death Gore Zone issue! What a beautiful cover! You guys need to check out his article. Unfortunately, I did not finish my piece in time which makes me sad because we were hoping to be in the same issue. I need to snap out of it and finish that article. So proud of John.

Later that evening I returned to bed and I was in so much pain, I wanted to put my head through a wall. The right side of my face was throbbing and it felt like I had been stabbed in the stomach multiple times. What's worse is that everyone smoking downstairs were SOOOOOO loud. They were all up till 6am. Oh yea, the section where the regular attendees smoke was right below our room. I could hear many detailed conversations. There was a moment where I stepped out into the balcony to get some fresh air and everyone began screaming, "Herzberg!" I was on the 3rd floor. That's how close I was. Nope, totally getting back in bed!

The best part of my weekend was without a doubt all the time I spent with Torrani, Jovanka, Heather Buckley, and Spooky Dan. We all went to a shooting range where we had zombie targets. I loved every second of it. Then we went to a family steak house where everyone was staring at us for being so weird looking and obnoxiously loud about our views on patriotism and many other obscene things. It was fabulous. Buckley also writes for Gore Zone and Fangoria. Jovanka was a writer for Rue Morgue and I always admired her writing style. She's involved with many projects that you should all keep up to date on and if you claim to be a horror fan but never heard of Spooky Dan Walker then something is wrong with you.

I always make Torrani drive my car

I inevitably had to delete a friend from Facebook who in return got offended. This is silly. Facebook is just a social networking site. If you're really friends then you can call or text that person. Why doesn't anyone do this anymore? This woman caused a scene last year because she felt like I ignored her all weekend and showed someone else more attention. That was not the case. This year I went out of my way to contact the person, via text all weekend, to let her know where I will be and what was going on. She didn't even care that I was sick nor did she bother to ask if I was okay.I cannot be worried about petty things like this. Life goes on. Also, saying horrible things about Fangoria/Gore Zone is completely unbecoming and shows just what kind of person you are. Not to mention, unprofessional. I just had to get that out, sorry.

I enjoyed the Kim Coates panel but his autograph was the only autograph I cared about. I had already met the majority of the guests at previous conventions and I am trying not to become one of those autograph hoarders. Face it, it's a little sad. I enjoyed meeting the creator of this tasty vodka by a local man and it looks like I will be partnering up with their product for this Halloween!

It was nice catching up with Aj Bowen again. The last time I hung out with him was in Austin for Fantastic fest where I had amusing footage of him getting pounded from behind. I cherish that video. Spooky Dan and I rocked horror trivia. That was another favorite part of my weekend.

Moving on, I quit bartending at the strip club several months ago because that job was killing me and turning me into something I hate. Now I am bartending closer to home in a less stressful environment. My health has gotten better but I still have a few set backs. The hormone shots are helping, thank God. For a while there, I felt like a crazy person. Recently, both of my parents were in the hospital and our family dog died. I felt depressed and didn't know how to reach out to anyone. I lost my passion for writting and slacked off with my VHS column for Geek Juice. I began ignoring my friends. Trust me, I am trying real hard to snap out of this but I am fine and I am sorry if I alarmed anyone. Sometimes, it's best to fight your demons alone. I'll get back to that happy place sooner or later and I do not expect any of you to understand just how I am feeling. In the meantime, I am still making pretty pictures!

That's all I can think of to add at the moment. Hopefully, I can get out of this strange funk and get some articles published on Geek Juice. Love you all! OH! I did finally get the kids to Schlitterbahn again! Cannot wait to see how those pictures turned out.

Stay Up to Date on My VHS Column for Geek Juice!

Very happy to announce that I now have extra time to submit more and more material for Geek Juice and I am getting a little fancier with promotional art.

First up, my most recent article Art House Experiment: The Beauty in Violent Subjects

The Geek Juice staff is known for their outstanding and highly offensive videos. There's a clip of me included in the dissection of DEMONS coming to the site soon and YES I am standing in front of my VHS collection in the video.

Here's a reminder of what you may have been missing from my VHS column since May 2014....

Thanks for all the support over the years lovies and see you at Texas Frightmare Weekend in just a few weeks!

Nominated For a Rondo Hatton Award

It's the 13th year for The Rondo Hatton Awards. In a way, you could say these our own Oscars. This year, my VHS column for Geek Juice "250 Lines of Resolution" has been nominated for Best Online Column of 2014. It's nice to see I have readers and peers who think I am worthy enough for a nomination when the basis for my column is simply my love for nostalgia and keeping VHS alive. For years I have been writing about my love for VHS but it didn't start to take notice until 2 years ago. Even if I do not win, I am content with being nominated along with other writers whom I admire. So many great names on that list. Congratulations and good luck to all the nominees. If you would like to vote, click on this link here for instructions. You do not have to fill out every nominee. There were actually categories I couldn't vote on because I am not up to date on that field but please try to vote for as many categories as possible. Simply put an X next to your selection or highlight the field. You must email you submission to the email provided on the page and it's very important that you INCLUDE YOUR FIRST AND LAST NAME. They're aware of spamming. Your information will not be made public.

It's February!

Staying busy as usual. I've had to excuse myself from a few projects, Lagniappe Film and Music Festival being one of them. Unfortunately, I just do not have as much time nor energy to do all the things I love BUT if you are interested in your film being submitted into the festival, email me and I will show you the way. This is what I have been up to lately besides getting biopsy after biopsy (my poor vagina) and chasing around the cutest toddler in the world, with a hectic work schedule behind the bar.

1. It's officially Women in Horror Month! I have some enlightening articles coming your way through my column for Geek Juice. I will also be making a few appearances on podcasts. As for my own, I have to step away from having my own podcast. There's too much work and energy that goes into these things. I'm perfectly happy with co-hosting or being a guest on your podcast, depending on the subject matter and scheduling.

2. Malevolent Magazine has a lovely spread of me wearing that fan favorite VHS corset/dress. There's an interview attached. Thanks again for featuring me!

3. Still making room for all my VHS!

4. Cat5 Magazine featured me as the bartender, yet again. The article is accessible on the web.

5. Struggling interminably to isolate my personal life from my public persona. It bothers me that my family members feel the need to stalk my online presence because I do not take the time to open up about my extracurricular activities and why should I? I don't do what I do so that I could be told that I am rebellious. I love horror movies. I am obsessed with nostalgia. I think the female form is beautiful. I shouldn't have to keep feeling like I have to explain myself when my religious family tells me that "Bartending in a seedy strip club is unGodly." It bothers me that I still have a hard time opening up about my feelings. Though, it seems so easy for me to write it out. I keep myself pretty secluded and remain a hermit the majority of the time and I like it that way. For my birthday, I had such an amazing time and it was a great escape. I love to socialize but the amount of time I enjoy public outings has become minimal. Maybe it's due to the fact that I have been bartending for so long, I'd rather enjoy a sunset with good food, great company, or a movie. I don't like going to bars and it's rare that I actually have a weekend off so why would I want to spend it at a night club? My hormones have also effected me more than I care to share. I feel like Stan Marsh in the South Park episode where everything is shit. Maybe I really have become a cynical ass hole. Everything and everyone around me is annoying. I find myself caring less and less about the colorful characters that I serve. On my good days, I love what I do. I'm also 29 so my thoughts and life choices are all over the place. One thing is for sure, I have amazing friends and an amazing man-friend.

Last but not least, this after work photo of us cleaning the bar is the perfect example of how I feel about my job.

Update; had another photoshoot recently. Hair/MUA Frenchesca Coleman. Photography James D.

New York and Stuff

When November rolls around I like to list everything I am thankful for over the span of 10 months. I already made a few 'thankful' posts earlier and I am too busy to cover everything that has happened so if I leave any events or friends out, my bad dudes. On to the list of things I have been involved with, thankful for, etc etc etc....

The rough draft for the Hanukkillah script has been finished. More updates on that soon. Work keeps me pretty busy and this move into the new house has been draining. BUT I still find time to let photographers take pretty pictures of me. Some of these are behind the scenes and some are finishing touches by Darryl James.

This back drop is REAL! Downtown PA

We found a bar in the old hotel & I'm a bartender so ya...

I went to New York for Comicon, Judas Priest, and a few other events. Got to spend time with my bestie Torrani, Ted, and the lovely wife Bev. Also, got to spend more time with the Soskas. I planned on writing about my entire experience but I had serious jet lag and now much of the excitement has faded. I am getting old.

Journalists, I highly recommend getting the 4-Day Pro pass

Like I said before, work keeps me busy and around this time of the year I get a lot of requests to be a guest on local radio shows or to be interviewed in magazines to discuss Halloween-themed cocktails. The Beaumont Enterprise wrote two different articles that featured me this year where I talked about proper bar etiquette in one and the other article focused on "The Booziest Spots in Beaumont." The club Temptations, where I currently bartend, made it to #11. The old pub also made it to the list with the photo they took of me for the magazine Cat5 last Halloween. FNTX had me on their show a few months ago where I was asked to bring in a couple of my favorite dancers from the club and we discussed "The Real Ladies of the Night." They asked me to come back on the show where I made some Halloween-themed cocktails while we were live on the air. One of these is MY OWN RECIPE that's Underworld inspired, "The Corvinus Gene."

I love my co-workers. We are all so handsome. I still have to brag about how awesome my job is.

I was a Ghostbuster for Halloween

I still have my VHS column for Geek Juice and I love my boys! We have created a new theme show, Sex Ed With Geek Juice. The first show had several listeners on the GJ website. We did a short addition with The Cinema Snob's Brad Jones joining us.

Looking back at how awesome this year has been, it makes me realize just how privileged I am and all the cool shit I get to do. I get to interview and hang out with filmmakers and artists that I looked up to when I was a kid and continue to look up to. I have more than one amazing job. I have amazing friends. Amazing co-workers. An amazing boyfriend and above all things, AMAZING CHILDREN! I still cannot believe I actually made it to TV as well. Now that I think about it, it's no wonder I get attacked online by strange females that I never heard of. Jealousy makes people do crazy things and I forgive you all. Stay tuned for more updates AND I will see you all in Austin, November 16th for the VHS swap meet! Glad I got these built in shelves for my clams.